Yesterday night became so excruciating. I did not have my Synflex @ home, there wasn’t any Panadol extra. I was going through it alone. It became so unbearable that I was curling up like a prawn and bawling my eyes out. I got dressed and walked slowly to the Esso nearby at around midnight or so and got the Panadol Extras. It was then I fell asleep around 2-ish.

What made it worst was that I didn’t have any support system. I’m going through all of these for a cause. I didn’t ask for the body system to be like this. And to get no emotional or mental support, it just didn’t help. If I know that I’d be going thru’ this alone, I wouldn’t have bothered… Prolly it came at the wrong timing but still… This is only the beginning. What if we got lucky and each time I have a bitch fit, do I also have to go through it alone and the blame is on me coz it’s all in the head. Think for a while will ya!