This is beginning to sound whiney (well to me at least) coz it’s been the same ol’ results time after time, so to those who are reading and goes “Asyik sama jer ” or “So what’s new?”. Well, there’s a lil’ cross at the top right hand corner, please click if you feel so! :p
It was another negative this time round. So much for positive thinking! *pppfffttt* So Dr. S told me that no matter what I’d still need to have my monthly cycle. She gave me 2 sets for the next 2 months as she wanted me to start on IVF by March. She mentioned about a 2 week bed rest thingy, so with the colleague getting married (the only guy that is covering me @ work), I may have to push it to April. So now, we are just waiting for the IVF centre to call and settle all the necessary paperwork before we proceed.
I know of people who have tried for many many years and till date, they are still not yet granted with a child, but I do also know of couples who have tried, failed a few times but eventually are blessed with a few bundles of joy. I’m sure to many people, it’s HIS way of testing you or, HE has better plans for you or, it’s not your time yet… In my heart, yeah I know THAT! I have been trying anything and everything that I could possibly think of/ read of/ heard of, so how can I not know that…. BUT I am after all still a human being, a woman with feelings. Try as I might to just shove the feelings away, it does come creeping it when you least expected. So when I tell the Mr how I feel, he’ll try to reassure me the same way like how others have tried to reassure me. In the end, I’ll just totally shut off and pretend that all is well (which I can be very good at), keeping myself busy with whatever I could think of. At times, I think I like the idea of not having kids for now but till when right…
Don’t get me wrong, I do want to have kids but the journey towards it is very meh! -____- Sometimes, I do ask myself if I am that abnormal. Anyhows, does not mean that I go for IVF, it’s still going to be successful. There’s still a chance that even if I do conceive, ppl with PCOS has a higher probability of miscarriage… Sigh! No matter what I guess to just don’t give up right! With all that said, I found this article online. Just wanted to share it – Huffington Post: Infertility – Miracle Baby Something to ponder on…
